TORTURE - GIRLS ONLY

The torture of waiting for your Mr.Right to come along

The torture of having found your Mr. Right ( or u thought so ) only to WONDER whether the happy ending is ever gonna happen

Two sifferent situations, but I think the torture and pain is the same.

Torture, such torture

Inspiration In The Wee Hours

"Good morning, baby..." she said to me.
Her arms wraps around my neck. Her soft cheek against mine.
I love the way she smells.
"Gazing the sky again I see." she continues.
"Everyday..." I started, "I thank God for having you by my side."
The arms tighten.

Ponder

Have anyone ever wondered how we are suppose to live life? How are we suppose to love someone?

Ok, I know this is like very subjective. But, let's try anyways.

I believe in living life as being joyful, grateful and enthusiastic. Looking forward to every brand new day. Always seeing the positive in things that happens, even though it is so bad. Just because you know inside you that you are capable to handle it. Maybe not by yourself, maybe you need some kind of help but you somehow knew, that in the end, you will get out from the other side, a little bit bruised, but alive anyways. I enjoyed my life, because every morning when I get up, I thank God for giving me such a wonderful life, a great family, a whole bunch of great friends, for the healing of my body, for letting me keep my senses, and for the way I love.

I love like I did not before, simply because I learn how to love from the experiences that I had. Slowly, I started to understand the kind of love that God have for mankind, the kind of love that a Mother have for her Child. The Unconditional Love. It is the kind of love that did not ask for anything back, not even for the person to love you back. You just love for the sake of loving. It feels like nothing is lost, even though everything is given. I know it doesn't make sense to most. But to me the way to love someone is just that, loving him or her. Period. Don't ask for anything back, even love. And then everything feels "lighter"(I can't find any better word). What you do for the object of your love feels more sincere, because you are not trying to gain anything from those gestures. No jealousy, no greed. I just feel...FREE.

Isn't it amazing that sometimes, when we differ from others, in the way we do things for instance, we tend to get called weird and maybe crazy or stupid. People don't take differences very well. They like similarities. Get a partner? Find something in common. Get a job? Find one that appeals to your strength. Yeah I agree in the logic behind that, but are differences so bad? Isn't it what makes things interesting? I love the diversity. I am a passive person, I think, and I believe I need someone that is aggresive to help me fulfill my potential. I am calm and positive, and as a result of that, my more temperamental friends gain something from me, usually patience. Haha.

Anyways, this is the way that I live my life and love someone. I cherish the differences and I will protect it from people who are fanatically programmed to accept only people like them.

Enjoy your life, it is meant for that. Be nice. Be loving. Be sincere.

~YES to diversity, pluralism and liberalism~

The 5 Lessons

There were many lessons learnt....

The Shodaime...
It was an unfamiliar territory, exciting yet completely cluesless as to how to proceed. A sense of compatibility that is not overwhelming and over-bearing. Just an easy rapport and a sense of honest connection. Wish there were some guidance and just maybe, it would not be lost till now. Lesson - The First Touch

The Nidaime...
An brush with the "elite?". The out-of your-league type. In the end, it was proven otherwise. A mutual decision. Immature. Learning the ropes. Unprepared. Exciting but external influence plays a major role. A slight sense of uneasiness. Never truly comfortable. A too formal of a connection. Given more time, would it had been different?
Lesson - The One Sided

The Sandaime...
The most descriptive by far. A truly exciting time and experience. An eye opener. Opens up a whole plethora of the "unknown-before". Aggressive-passive collides, persistence, and patience. Unique-ness is the attraction. A complete reversal of the one before. A precedence to the ones after. A lingering taste of what might been. Truly memorable.
Lesson - The First Sight

The Yondaime...
Physical, mostly. Should not have started it. Sensuous and wild. Truly appeals to the passive. A new sense of experiencing. Challenging. Painful yet grateful of the outcome. Proves that being true is the best way. Level upgraded.
Lesson - The Physical

The Godaime...
The deepest yet. Enthusiastic. Positive. Almost unbearable to hold back the excitement. Positive. A challenge to improve. Faith in the future. Sensuous. An amazing connectedness. A whole new meaning to lightness. Easy. Without fear. A new level of pureness of touch and speech. Patience. Swept by the wave everytime. Always grateful of the time and took the time to savour the pleasure. No boundaries on this side. No requirement. Everything given and nothing is expected.
Lesson - The Unconditonal

Then, the elusive lesson, still waiting - The Everlasting

Or are there more after that?

OF BEING BULLIED

Yes, Zhugeliang bullied me in making his blog looks cool with this red and bloody theme..plus the link to other blogs which are not that many pun..heheh, plus some other technical details even a 5th grader could do..but he is just so lazy. Freak!

Anyhow, I know Zhugeliang..or lemme call him Zhug la.. (hmm..maybe I should have a glamorous name too) for like 12 years already..wow, for a kid with that age, already sit for UPSR u know..hehehe..nway, we took a-levels together and that was how I know him.

He is been a bully@freak from the day when he became Class Rep while I was his assistant. Ye la tuh assistant! I should be the Class Rep! It was suppose to be me! Me!!..heheh.. *gila kuasa mode on* but he is one of my closest friend indeed. *puking mode on*

When I found out that he was gonna be working as someone who is 'travelling the world' while making sure that his clients are happy no matter what..I was thinking, God is fair..heheh

So, thank you Zhug for inviting me.. (u better be inviting me as I am doing all the work!) and if anyone of u out there are interested in sharing ur views too, just leave ur email in the comment box and we will welcome u with open arms. Pergh..see how different both of us are. I am so polite and nice. Hehehe..

Till the next post.

Tagging - DESCRIBE YOURSELF USING A MOVIE TITLE

I saw this at a friends' blog...this kind of tag is much more interesting since it requires some creativeness to answer. So here is mine:

DESCRIBE YOURSELF USING A MOVIE TITLE

Male or female?
Dennis the Menace

Age?
Seven

Describe yourself.
A Beautiful Mind

What scares you?
What Women Want

What makes you happy?
Basic Instinct...hehe

How do you think most people see you?
Either The Omen or Patch Adams

Describe your school.
The Scary Movie

Your friends are…?
Meet The Spartans.

Name a movie that shares its name with a band or song.
Ada Apa Dengan Cinta

Your room is…..?
The Beach

Your family is/are…..?
Meet The Parents

Your summer is/will be/was…?
The Sound of Music

Your school year is/will be/was…?
War of the Worlds

Your favorite thing to do…?
Shakespeare In Love

Describe an unpleasant experience.
The Grudge

If you want to do it too...please send a copy to me so I can see what your answers are. TQ

Numero Uno

Lets get this started, shall we?

What shall the story be for today? How about the coming election in my favourite nation, Malaysia? The many lives it will affect, how it will affect the nation and of course, the many opinions about it (including mine). Well, talks are cheap....so it is only logical to talk more, am I right?

Don't answer that.

It is not something so serious. Well for some it is. Coming March 8th, Malaysia is going to have its 12th General Election, of which BN will win with a 2/3 majority. If the results turns out to be other than this, I would be seriously suprised. Now, for my unsolicited opinion....I think it is high time the people of this country vote more opposition candidates just to reduce the majority. BN is too arrogant I think. It claims that it knows what is good for THE PEOPLE and always use that statement to justify whatever it did. Especially the main component party UMNO.

It is such a boring subject to talk about politics with the wrong people (this means YOU). Hahaha. Im just bored. Not a good way to start the very first post is it?

Well, it will be better soon. If it doesn't, you can complain at 1-800-IDONTCARE.